16th January 2011 Controlled audience day

Stress! The tech was late, I had no one to operate the camera, plus a bad back bla bla bla. 

But it ran relatively smoothly. No one turned up to the 1pm show but it meant we could have some lunch which was good.

Points to concider;

After 3 shows I was exhausted!

I improvised a lot so no show was the same

I really felt in character throughout both pieces and connected, however that connection was much deeper with the post modern one than it was with the representational where I flicked in and out and I was a lot more controlled and precise.

I only got to do the post modern one once

Improvisation was a key element in the post modern choreography that I did. Although it was choreographed there was ‘breathing space’ in it, the choreography was more of a structure, there were certain movements that I did in a specific order but the in-between parts were improvised. So on one hand I knew exactly what I was going to do and what I was feeling and thinking (my character) and why I was feeling and thinking those things. Those thoughts were expressed through my movements as choreographed. But I also worked with my senses and as Adam (Benjamin) told me to 'feel it in your center', I didn’t time my movements to the music I timed them to my centre, I relied on my instincts and senses rather than being precise and relying on the music. 

This however did flag up its own issues; because it is so heavily reliant on my connection if I am having a bad day for example that it wouldn’t work... But anyway I didn’t it want fine. I think the main problems really are that it just wasn’t really what I wanted to do and the music I had to dance to was extremely evocative something picked up by my supervisor and that audience members fed back on, so no matter what I danced the music overpowered it.  

I’m a little bit frustrated with myself that I got myself into this situation. If I’d have instead developed my own piece from my own ideas and created the choreography in these two ways using the exact same process it would have been so much easier and less stressful all round! But it is done now so I will just have to see what the results show :)